The Dying Statice

[MojaveRattler]

And please remember that I never lied
And please remember how I felt inside now honey
You got to make it your own way

As strong as you were, tender you go.
I'm watching you breathing for the last time.
A song for your heart, but when it is quiet,
I know what it means and I'll carry you home.
I'll carry you home.

Name: Sina Akechi (Sin-uh)

Nickname: Sin

Age: 24

Birthday: 2/18

Gender: Male

Height: 5'7

Weight: ...

Seme or Uke: em.. he could probably be either

Sexual Orientation: Gay

Relationship Status: Single

Ethnicity: Asian

Race: Shifter

Element(s): He is not entirely certain....

Pet: Great Black Hawk named Tenshi



Occupation: Teacher

Subject (if a teacher): Art


Build: Looks to be fragile, has curves, well toned but not muscular, fragile at strong in his own way. Everyone sees him different.

Hair: Long Black some white strands mixed in

Eyes: Dark

Casual Clothing: Kimono's

Work Clothing: well usually Kimono's

Identifying Marks: Look for them

Overall Appearance: pictures

Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
I feel you everywhere I go.
I see your smile, I see your face,
I hear you laughin' in the rain.
I still can't believe you're gone.

Likes: Flowers especially Statice ones as they remind of the sea, his favorite place in the world to be. Long walks, The changing of the seasons as he can watch things, but he is not fond of fall and winter but he thinks they are beautiful. He loves the water and the sky as he loves to swim and to fly, to run and feel the wind against his flesh and skimming through his hair. To laugh and to be held close, to kiss and to love. To sketch, to paint, to take pictures when ever he can so he can not forget or be forgotten. To live, being a live is a sheer joy to him, and he wishes others would see life for what it is before it is taken from them. Sina enjoys to lay down beneath the heavens, to watch as clouds slowly float by, to dream and be dreamed of... He loves to look at the stars and find shapes in them, to look at the moon as it changes its phases, he wonders often what it would be like to reach out and take it. Being with someone and being near them, to be special to them. He enjoys just being by someone he cares for, to talk to them while he can, to see them smile and hear them laugh, to wipe away their tears.

Dislikes: Sina hates that he is sick, he hates that he knows he will die soon. He fears that he will not find love and he despises when others say something similar to another, or about them-self. How he wishes others saw the beauty even in the pain of life. He wishes people would not be so cruel, and that the world was more peaceful. Hating war, and hating how others treat one another, how not one person seems to have any respect. He wishes to be able to protect others, to shield them from all the pain of the world. He wishes people would see how beautiful the arts are, how wonderful everyone is in their own way... though he admits, it will be hard to achieve this. He hates how he often cries, how he often seems to cry for no reason, how others seem to pretend they don't see, he wishes to have someone that would comfort him, tell him it would be alright, that he won't die, even though he knows he will. He hates not having anyone, not a single family member, and being alone, he hates how he does not have love.


Fears: Dying, he does not wish to die, he wants to live, he wants to live more than anything. That he shall die alone, he always smiles and says he will be okay even when he is not.

Goals: To find love.

Self Esteem Level: It is not that great

Skills/Strengths: The sky and the water are his thing, he loves to swim and he loves to fly. He loves art and he is good at it, he is also a good cook. Dreaming, he is good at dreaming. Hugs and being there for his friends, he wants to take care of them, to protect them. He is a wonderful singer and player of the violin.

Weaknesses: Cancer, he is dying. Self esteem and confidence, not crying, not being scared of dying. Admitting to certain things, not going to the side of the water as soon as he can and staring longingly at it, when he can not he often looks up to the sky...

Personality:

Sin is a dreamer, he wishes to live more than anything, and he often cries but he says he is alright. In his own way he is both strong and very weak, he knows his time is coming. He is both frightened, and yet he knows the pain will stop, everything will stop, and as much as that sounds nice, he is terrified, as dying is the last thing he wants. Yet, he longs for the pain to stop, the tiredness to stop, the lack of will to eat, he wants it to all stop. Sina is a sweet heart, he is both afraid himself and yet he tries to be strong and to protect others. Tries to make others see that dying is not the answer, that you have to fight to live, that you have to at least try. Yet his will is withering away like the petals of a flower, gently falling, and he will die when the last petal falls. Sina wishes, he dreams, he cries, he feels, he wants to be loved, hsi personality is something, and you must meet this wonderful man to learn... he will tell you what forever is if you meet him down by the sea, he will tell you what forever is, because he remembers dying.

Would you see the world? Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family,
I wonder what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue,
I feel like I can talk to you,
An' I know it might sound crazy.

Parents/Guardians: Lena and Cloud Akechi(deceased....murdered)

Siblings: Ailyana(deceased age 10), Salena(deceased 10)
the girls were twins

Spouse/Significant Other: how he dreams

holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

Child/Children: he would love that

Place of birth: A place right beside the ocean, weeping cherry treas out back, sakura trees out front, climbing roses of various colors climbing up the winds.. Burning bushes lining the drive, flowering bushes alongside the house.. a simple house... a beautiful house, white pebbles for the drive, beautiful leading right to white sand and the ocean... he still lives there.... he will always live there... his parents and sisters were murdered a hundred miles away... he was 17.. he was sick in bed at home...

"But as I drift to sleep
When I just can't yet
Twenty thousand sheep
Some I will forget
"

History:

"hold on to me love
you know i can't stay long
all i wanted to say was i love you and i'm not afraid
can you hear me?
can you feel me in your arms?"

At seventeen he was sick in bed at home, his sisters and parents had gone to a concert... they were murdered.... he cried for days, for a long time.. he misses them... he has their ashes above the fire place... they always sat there, simple beautiful home... he will never forget them, he would never want to.. He became a school teacher at a college, he is well loved. Though the students know not what is wrong with him. Growing up by the ocean, looking after his younger sisters, taking care of them, taking them everywhere with him. He loved them, he loves his family and they supported him.. A couple years ago he got sick with cancer, he hates it, he fights it, but his will is slowly fading..just meet him.

It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell that I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who you'd be today?

Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
The only thing that gives me hope,
Is I know I'll see you again some day.

Some day, some day, some day.

"i'll miss the winter
a world of fragile things
look for me in the white forest
hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
i know you hear me
i can taste it in your tears"