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Yunxu
Aug 7, 2010 22:27:02 GMT -5
Post by MojaveRattler on Aug 7, 2010 22:27:02 GMT -5
"He is my love and I shall do as I please!" Samar snapped right back at Ailin. About to reach out and move him by force when lightning struck the ground. Stiffing as a voice boomed.. WildFire showed no signs of hearing it. The next things that happened where in such a blur.. he could not be sure what happened.. Samar.. Samar was gone.. WildFire was very broken and in desperate need of comfort right now. He would not sleep this night for he could not sleep. How badly he wanted to curl up in someones arms. To feel some security.. all his security was taken away in one brutal conversation. He felt so alone though he was not alone at all. Crying so forcefully and trembling violently from the force of his sobs. WildFire wanted to be close to someone.. he wanted to be held.. to be told it was going to be alright.. though it seems like it never will be. His thoughts were a muddled mess and it showed how much he had depended on Samar.. Samar was always right there. Now the one thing that kept him so happy and always in that good mood.. that thing had hurt him badly. WildFire never showed the signs that he was sexually and physically abused.. mostly sexually. Samar always had comforted him and been there for him.. now Samar was gone.. Samar had hurt him.. Samar had promised he would never hurt him.. Samar hurt him! Why?! Why would Samar do this to him!? WildFire tried to stand up but could not do so.. he ended up landing on his hip and supporting himself weakly with his hands. Crying so violently.. sounds could not be made for the force of those tears as so great. His heart ached and burned in his chest.. he needed someone to help him.. he needed Ailin.. he needed his grandmother.. he needed someone!
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Yunxu
Aug 7, 2010 23:13:18 GMT -5
Post by Amia on Aug 7, 2010 23:13:18 GMT -5
"over my dead body, you sick fuck..." was the reply he snarled. when the voice of the goddess boomed he wondered what importance Samar and Wildfire held to the goddess, but when Samar left, he turned his attention to Wildfire. he placed a sweet kiss on the boy's forehead and carried him into the tent before taking him into a loving, unspeakably wonderful embrace that very few could give. he gently ran his fingers through his hair as he held him close. "I know.....that it hurts right now....I have loved many in my time and all but one broke the promise that they would never harm or cheat on me. I know how you are suffering right now, but believe me when I say the pain will cease after a while. until then I shall be there by your side nomatter how I may be of service. I promise this on my life, and on the soul of Mathew O'Conner." he said. never before had he sworn something on his beloved Matty, but it seemed appropriate right now. if Wildfire had noticed any of the affectionate gestures he had shown when speaking of Matt, then he would know that this was a man who meant much to him and he would not swear on his soul if he didn't mean every word. "I am sorry this happened my child, but I shall be here with you as well. I should have forseen this when I realized how strongly you felt for him. forgive me for allowing him to go to you without much warning...." came the now gentle voice of Linali. it would appear neither her nor Ailin would be getting any sleep tonight.
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Yunxu
Aug 7, 2010 23:23:56 GMT -5
Post by MojaveRattler on Aug 7, 2010 23:23:56 GMT -5
When arms carried him back into the tent he felt relaxed and a little bit better.. but he hurt so visibly much. Arms were around him and it was so nice to be in this embrace Trying so hard to not cry like he was crying. WildFire was unable to stop crying and his pain radiated around him. Choking on his own tears and trying desperately to get closer to Ailin in this embrace. Feeling week and pathetic and hearing his grandmothers voice in his head. Still he was not able to reply to anyone.. his thoughts muddled together and making no sense at all. They were pained and showed how badly he was hurting.. how much he had loved Samar.. WildFire was badly wounded. Clinging in desperation to Ailin.. it was heart wrenching to know that a person could be hurt this much. Samar had broken a promise that was not meant to be broken.. had wanted something after it that was unspeakable. "Ailin..." he said, that name so weakly. He wanted badly to be held like this and it was helping him to some extent. Just needing to be held close and allowed to know it would be alright. At some point in the night he had cried to the point he could cry no more.. just stayed in Ailin's arms.. his body was weak and tired.. at some point he kind of passed out into sleep. Cried during the sleep and just needed to be held close. At some point.. he could not lay by the other any longer and went outside. Shifting into his equine form he just stood there. Ears pressed down to the side to tune out the pain.. it did not work. Tail lowered and tucked between his legs, muzzle nearly touching the ground his head was held so low. Legs trembling and body shuddering at random intervals. WildFire just stood there.. he would not move.. even to Ailin's prodding less something was put on his head and he was lead.
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Yunxu
Aug 8, 2010 0:02:34 GMT -5
Post by Amia on Aug 8, 2010 0:02:34 GMT -5
as the night went on, Ailin continued to hold Wildfire close. he thought to himself how he had gotten over the pain of losing Matty....his father gave him the freedom to travel the world, to find himself once more like many did much later in their lives. he thought of his time in India as he learned of hinduism and he opened his mouth and began singing an ancient Indian folksong he had been taught by the old guru he had been staying with. his voice was warm and rich and gentle. as beautiful as a anyone's voice could be short of being a siren. it wasn't long before Linali joined in, singing in an equally pleasing woman's voice. they sang together in beautiful harmony late into the night, their voices comforting to hear. eventually the singing stopped and Wildfire seemed to be asleep. Ailin quickly followed thanks to exhaustion, but Linali could sleep later on and kept watch on them throughout the night. Ailin awoke sometime in the morning to find he was alone in the tent. he rushed outside only to find a horse. he gaped at the creature wondering how in the hell he got there. "it is him, the horse and Wildfire are one and the same, Ailin. you won't get anywhere talking to him though...." said Linali. suddenly a rope halter appeared before him as well as a strange looking giant lizard whom Linali had placed Wildfire's things upon. "my pet shall follow you, all you must take care of is Wildfire." she said. Ailin nodded. at first he tried speaking with Wildfire, but when that didn't work, he sighed and placed the halter on Wildfire and began pulling him in the direction of Senya. when they started moving, Linali's beloved 'pet' followed them. "I know you're miserable now, but things will get better, I promise you. as I said before, there is more to your life than just the person you loved." he said, his words still rather kind as he pulled Wildfire onward.
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Yunxu
Aug 8, 2010 0:18:33 GMT -5
Post by MojaveRattler on Aug 8, 2010 0:18:33 GMT -5
WildFire did not respond to the site of Ailin or the appearance of the lizard thing. Ailin could place the halter on him with his head nearly touching the ground but could easily lift his head up. Letting his head drop back down if it was lifted and not moving at first when pulled on. Eventually he started to take slow and lifeless steps. Hooves dragging along on the ground as he followed like a dead horse.. a old one perhaps. Showing no interest in the things that are around him. His mind was numb and be barely swished his tail to get rid of pest. Not hearing what Ailin said to him in truth.. it just went over his head.. in one ear and out the other. WildFire would not drink water nor eat anything if it was offered. Looking at the things but not bothering at all.. like he was not interested. He just kept walking when Ailin would move and stopping when Ailin stopped.. sort of.. at times he did not move or stop. A dull rather glazed expression in his eyes. WildFire seems to have lost his will and is not likely to be responding to anything any time soon. He must seem bomb proof right now.. in truth he is far from that. WildFire has lost his will and his interest in the things that are around him. A heavy sigh escaped the lovely stallion as he followed after the man that led him. He would have carried his own things if they were placed on his back.. he is likely to carry Ailin as well if it comes to that.
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Yunxu
Aug 8, 2010 0:32:02 GMT -5
Post by Amia on Aug 8, 2010 0:32:02 GMT -5
as they walked, Ailin spoke but he had a feeling Wildfire wasn't listening. still, he spoke to the other as they walked. "he's pretty tame right now...you could try riding him." suggested Linali, but Ailin shook his head. "I will ride him when he is happy again if he will allow me to do so." he said. Linali sighed a bit. "as you like then...." she replied. he walked all the way to the outskirts of Senya where his orphanage was. when he arrived he brought in Wildfire's things, checked on and spoke to his children and Rikku, then returned to Wildfire. "come inside child, there is no point in standing here in misery. you wanted to see my children...I'm sure they would be happy to see you..." he said, gently petting Wildfire's neck. "please, you must learn to live for more than him. there are many other reasons to live in this world..." he said, hoping he would be able to coax Wildfire back into human form and into the house.
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Yunxu
Aug 8, 2010 0:39:07 GMT -5
Post by MojaveRattler on Aug 8, 2010 0:39:07 GMT -5
This walking was tiring to the young colt.. his misery making it tiring and yet he still he walked. It seemed they arrived at where ever they were going soon enough. Standing there calm and still when the male vanished into a building. Nothing to hold his head up he let it drop.. muzzle nearly touching the ground once more. Ears still pressed down like a dogs as he tried to tune out his pain. Not noticing when a child was pushing his legs and playing his his tail and mane. Not noticing all the contact he was receiving and just standing there. The child was soon trying to get up on his back and he did not mind at all.. he did not care right now. Nothing could make him care it seemed.. Needing something to take his mind and get it working and make him think. WildFire let out a loud puff of air as he stood there. Lifting his head a little bit as he looked tiredly and forlornly at the child that stood in front of him. The child must be young.. did not look that old. Hands on either side of his head and then he was hugged. It must have been about this time that Ailin came out and was trying to get him to change forms. Lifting his head a little more so he could better see the man that spoke. Turning his head back to the child and lightly pushing the kid with his muzzle. Dragging his daggers as he walked and moving over to a shade tree. There he stood and would not seem to move at all. Just standing there.. he needed comforted and reassured still.. horses can be this way.
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Yunxu
Aug 8, 2010 1:24:25 GMT -5
Post by Amia on Aug 8, 2010 1:24:25 GMT -5
when Ailin got outside he saw one of his children on Wildfire and when they moved to a tree he followed. he sighed and hugged Wildfire. ".............when I was 16, I lost the only person I've ever truly been in love with....hit by a car because some horrible man thought it would be fine to drink and drive.....I laid in the hospital bed holding him and crying and he told me I must live for him but not only for him, for my friends and my father too. that they loved me and needed me and that no matter how alone I felt, they would always be right there for me and that no matter what it seemed like, this world is beautiful and worth living in..........at.....at 2:17am, Matty.......Matty died in my arms....." his voice broke slightly when he spoke of Matty's death, but he forced himself to stay strong and not cry this time as he had to be the adult for Wildfire's sake. "I became horribly depressed and took to drinking my sorrows away. half the time I was so drunk I could barely stand up, but it dulled the pain so I kept drinking. a year later, my father got fed up with me being a drunkard and put me in rehab though I was merely 17 years old. when I sobered up, I started thinking about what my Matty had said to me and because of that, I wanted to find the beauty in the world once more....my father suggested I travel the world and happily paid for me to go all manner of places. I trained with monks in temples in China, I learned how to surf in Hawaii, I went all sorts of places trying to find something worth living for and it was in India under the watchful and kind eyes of an old guru that I realized the truth of Matty's words. I should live for the people who love me, not simply the one person I loved more than anything. there is more in this world and on earth than just two people who love eachother. there are other people we need and love just as much and who love us deeply.....I may not have known you long, but I already love you Wildfire and by the looks of things so does lady Linali....there are people already in Maihito who love you and hate seeing what has been done to you. life is not the smouldering hell it seems like right now. it is beautiful and I will do everything I can to show you that once more." he said. his words were kind and profound, his own years of suffering making him incredibly wise beyond his years. he pulled back and kissed Wildfire's nose before hugging him once more. he didn't let on, but he felt incredibly exposed right now. he had never told anyone about what happened to his Matty. it was too painful to speak of his death and himself, he wished to curl up in a ball and die right now as he always did when he thought of Matty's death, but he continued to be strong for Wildfire, unyielding to the pain that burned within him at the moment. he could cry his heart out tonight in bed or possibly in the shower, hug himself and let out his pain, but for now he remained stoic and strong until he was free to let it out. a few tears rolled down his face, but he refused to allow any more to fall.
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Yunxu
Sept 22, 2011 22:46:01 GMT -5
Post by MojaveRattler on Sept 22, 2011 22:46:01 GMT -5
A week or two had past, and he was sleeping soundly in bed. Wearing only a white gown, thin straps, the gown reaching to his ankles, and fitting his form very, very well. Rolling over onto his back, eyes fluttering open, as he stretched in bed before getting up. Heading for the bathroom, the door only partially shut as he brushed the thin straps off his slender shoulders. The gown fell off his body pooling about his ankles, stepping away from the gown as he went to the shower. Turning the water on warm before stepping in and beneath the warm spray. Head tilting up as he sighed happily, he enjoyed the caressing feel of the water. Grabbing the soap and slowly washing his body, he never cared if someone watched him.... Next came the shampoo, conditioner, and finally he shaved his elgs.. not that there was usually anything for him to shave... all his hair seemed to be on his head alone... shaving his armpits if it was needed at all. After this he just stood under the spray for awhile, keeping hsi head out of it, so his ahir would dry some. Turning the water off and stepping out of the shower, ringing water form his hair again, drying it took a long while.. so it was only damp when he was done, no longer dripping. Brushing his teeth, combing tangles from hsi hair, and pulling the night gown back on. Pushing the door the rest of the way open, smiling happily, he was shockingly.. well over Samar, he no longer cared... it had just hurt so badly after finding otu Samar had only been lying again.. Oh well, his loss, and now he realized finally that he should forgot about that man.. and focus on this new, very handsome Ailin.
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Yunxu
Sept 23, 2011 23:08:59 GMT -5
Post by Amia on Sept 23, 2011 23:08:59 GMT -5
As time passed, Wildfire seemed to calm once more, becoming like the boy he'd first met again. Ailin was glad to see his suffering eased. He always preferred to see people happy. That particular morning, he'd gotten up early and gone for a swim in the orphanage's indoor pool. Around the time everyone would have started getting up, he got out and dried off his body. Due to the fact that he'd already gone swimming in his swim trunks and put them in the laundry, he wore his alternate swimsuit, a dark blue speedo type suit that was pleasantly form fitting and showed off his body nicely. Having spent all his life until now in Europe, he didn't think twice about donning such a revealing suit.
He walked through the halls drying off when he came across one of the bathrooms to find the door open and the view thanks to the mirror a naked Wildfire. He quickly put his towel over his head, trying his hair and hiding his blush. "Ahem. Wildfire? I would appreciate it if you would close the door when you aren't umm....decent. There are little kids running around here, you know?" He said, not thinking that with his towel off of his body nearly everything could be seen in his tight little swimsuit thanks to the positioning of the bathroom mirror.
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Yunxu
Sept 25, 2011 16:12:38 GMT -5
Post by MojaveRattler on Sept 25, 2011 16:12:38 GMT -5
Finishing drying off, and grabbing his white gown, blushing as he heard Ailin's voice, "Ai... I... sorry... glancing in the mirror, and staring.. Sliding the gown on, and drying his long hair a little more.... finally it was only damp.. just... stupid.. it took so long to dry.. but it was damp so all was good now. Hanging the towel nicely up, glancing in the mirror and giggling a little bit. Opening the door the rest of the way, "um..." laughing a bit, "Nice view Ai~" Wildfire had a habit of calling him such, it was a nickname he donned open the older man. For no good reason he suddenly just wrapped his arms around him, kissing his chest lightly because he could nto reach his cheek. ""um, I'll make breakfast, or help if you want me to" he said, slowly releasing Ailin from his grip as he stood there, some strands of hair in his way. Not brushing them away as he was distracted by the man standing before him. "Anyway, you know... um.. do I need to make lot of different stuff again?" he tried to make what everyone liked, and he enjoyed cooking so it was no problem for him. A stray thought took the thoughts of breakfast from his mind and caused a scarlet blush to stain his cheeks, looking down at the ground, shuffling his feet a little bit.
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